I found your website helping other teens, and I was wondering if you could help me. I'm 18 years old, and I guess what I need help with is I think I might be gay. I have looked at so much pornography, male only, I don't like female porn, well, I don't want to like male either, but I do. I have thoughts of myself having gay sex, and when I see guys, I rate them as cute and not cute. When I see one I think are really cute my penis gets hard, and I get this overwhelming feeling of wanting gay sex NOW. I never have had gay sex though, I just masturbate a lot, and quite a bit I masturbate to gay porn. I don't want to be gay, I want to grow into the man God wants me to be. But sometimes I feel like it just won't ever happen. Can you help me?
"For from within, out of the heart of men, proceed evil thoughts, adulteries, fornications, murders, thefts, covetousness, wickedness, deceit, lewdness, an evil eye, blasphemy, pride, foolishness. All these evil things come from within and defile a man" (Mark 7:21-23).
What you are dealing with right now is lust. Lust is a strong desire for something that is sinful. It is a desire that leads you to justify doing the sin in your mind though you haven't actually done the act. Obviously, if you are thinking about and justifying a sin in your head, if and when you are actually confronted with doing that sin you will end up doing it because you won't stop to think about the morality of it.
God doesn't give laws arbitrarily. The laws He gave men are what works in this world. "This is what the LORD says-- your Redeemer, the Holy One of Israel: "I am the LORD your God, who teaches you what is best for you, who directs you in the way you should go. If only you had paid attention to my commands, your peace would have been like a river, your righteousness like the waves of the sea"" (Isaiah 48:17-18). History has consistently shown that the laws given in the Bible have always improved the lives of its practitioners and those around them.
God calls things sins because there is harm in sin, even if you can't see it immediately because it is hidden under immediate pleasure. In this case, homosexuality contains a lot of harm: physically, emotionally, and spiritually.
"For this reason God gave them up to vile passions. For even their women exchanged the natural use for what is against nature. Likewise also the men, leaving the natural use of the woman, burned in their lust for one another, men with men committing what is shameful, and receiving in themselves the penalty of their error which was due" (Romans 1:26-27).
"Do you not know that the unrighteous will not inherit the kingdom of God? Do not be deceived. Neither fornicators, nor idolaters, nor adulterers, nor homosexuals, nor sodomites, nor thieves, nor covetous, nor drunkards, nor revilers, nor extortioners will inherit the kingdom of God" (I Corinthians 6:9-10).
Homosexuality is unstable.
By the way, I oppose heterosexual relationships without marriage for the same reason. However, homosexual relationships are much more unstable than most unmarried heterosexual relationships.
"The word "promiscuity is usually used pejoratively, in such loaded statements as "The AIDS crisis is a direct result of promiscuity in the gay community." It's not a neutral description but a moral condemnation, and is used against gays by any group that condemns homosexuality. What constitutes promiscuity depends upon the speaker and his value system. One person will call a man who has two sexual partners promiscuous; another will reserve this condemnation for a regular frequenter of brothels. As a rule, gay men call someone promiscuous if he has a lot of sex with a lot of different guys." [Charles Silverstein, author of a book on homosexual sex].
Notice the redefinition of the terms. In the homosexual community "promiscuous" doesn't imply a monogamous relationship. As long as a person mostly sticks to one partner and only has a few side relationships, then it is considered consistent. Yet the same actions among heterosexuals would be called promiscuous. In one survey of homosexuals involved with a lifetime partner: 57% report having sex with 30 or more people; 35% report having sex with 100 or more people. That is 92% with a large number of multiple sex partners while in a "lifetime commitment"!
"Sexual relationships with multiple partners is not condemned in the homosexual community and is even looked upon as a potentially positive experience." [Larry Burtoft, Ph.D, Setting the Record Straight, A Focus on the Family Report].
"For same-sex couples who "wed" in one of the five states that allow it, many have marriage vows. But according to a stunning New York Times article, "forsaking all others" isn't one of them. Calling infidelity "a gift," several couples are brutally honest about the lack of monogamy in most homosexual "marriages." Just how common is this phenomenon? A study scheduled for release next month from San Francisco State University found that more often than not, "open" marriages aren't the exception to counterfeit marriages; they're the rule.
"The Gay Couples Study followed 556 male partners for three years, and half had "sex outside their relationships, with the knowledge and approval of their partners." Some even had the audacity to say that heterosexuals have a lot to learn from this "evolution of marriage." On the contrary, it only exposes the mockery this movement is making of marriage. They want access to marriage only to destroy what should be its defining characteristic: fidelity! For years, FRC has argued against same-sex "marriage" on these very grounds. Now that the New York Times is confirming the trend, maybe even more people will start to listen." ["For Homosexuals, a Sad State of Affairs," Family Research Council (2/2/2010)]
Homosexuality is deadly.
"Study after study reveals that homosexuality, whether male or female, can take anywhere from 10, 20 to 30 years off of someone's lifespan. With all the attention on smoking, which the National Cancer Institute says takes from 7 to 10 years off someone's life, why not the same human outcry on homosexuality? Here's a behavior that's killing people 2 to 3 times the rate of smoking, yet nobody seems to care." [E. Fox, "Homosexual Lifespan," this page has a long list of evidence going back to the 1800's].
I oppose promiscuous sex among heterosexuals for the same reason.
"Remove your way far from her, and do not go near the door of her house, lest you give your honor to others, and your years to the cruel one; lest aliens be filled with your wealth, and your labors go to the house of a foreigner; and you mourn at last, when your flesh and your body are consumed" (Proverbs 5:8-11).
"Whoever commits adultery with a woman lacks understanding; He who does so destroys his own soul. Wounds and dishonor he will get, And his reproach will not be wiped away" (Proverbs 6:32-33).
The sad thing is that homosexual versions of sex contain an even higher risk of disease.
"Dr. Steven Wexner of the Cleveland Clinic in Ft. Lauderdale, Florida, stated in a 1990 study published in Diseases of the Colon and Rectum that "up to 55% of homosexual men with anorectal complaints have gonorrhea; 80% of the patients with syphilis are homosexuals. Chlamydia is found in 15% of asymptomatic homosexual men, and up to one third of homosexuals have active anorectal herpes simplex virus."" ["Diseases Related to Homosexuality"]
Recently the Center for Disease Control reported that AIDS rates are 50 times higher in homosexuals than in heterosexuals [LifeSiteNews, "AIDS Rate 50 Times Higher in Homosexual Men: Center for Disease Control"].
Homosexuality isn't how the human reproductive system was designed.
The human body was designed for heterosexual sex. Homosexuals must find ways to imitate intercourse by hand jobs, oral sex, or anal sex. The later is a primary reason why homosexuals have greater problems with diseases. The human body is not designed for males to couple with males or for females to couple with females. We have plenty of evidence that people are born heterosexual, so, yes, being heterosexual does have a genetic basis. We call one half "male" and the other half "female." The only way you and I were born is because of heterosexual relations. "So God created man in His own image; in the image of God He created him; male and female He created them. Then God blessed them, and God said to them, "Be fruitful and multiply; fill the earth and subdue it" (Genesis 1:27-28).
Sex is an act to both give pleasure and to lead to reproduction.
"And as for you, be fruitful and multiply; bring forth abundantly in the earth and multiply in it" (Genesis 9:7).
Homosexuality is a selfish act. Its partners participate in it solely for pleasure.
Homosexuality is sinful.
See "Homosexuality" for a long list of verses condemning homosexuality.
Homosexuality deludes its followers.
I read the studies related to moral issues, such as homosexuality. What I know is that there has been no study to date that has proven the cause of homosexuality beyond it being a personal choice. The closest any have gotten is to claim that there might be a tendency toward a homosexual disposition. Even these studies have not been able to get verifiable results. For example:
"In a summary of the biological research, Byne concluded 'what evidence exists thus far of innate biological traits underlying homosexuality is flawed.'" [Byne, W., 1994. "The biological evidence challenged," Scientific American 270(5):26-31 (p. 26). Cited in "Creationism and the problem of homosexual behaviour," Answers in Genesis].
Actual scientific evidence isn't of interest to those who only want to seek justification for what they have already chosen to do. Anyone claiming even the most remote support is clung to and rumor is spread without any questioning of its validity.
Homosexuals also want to play the victim card. They label all opposition as hatred of the vilest sort. When Christians say homosexuality is sinful they do not make a distinction between this form of sin or any other. All sin leads to death (Romans 6:23). To claim that your favored sin is not as bad as other sins is a meaningless position. "For whoever shall keep the whole law, and yet stumble in one point, he is guilty of all. For He who said, "Do not commit adultery," also said, "Do not murder." Now if you do not commit adultery, but you do murder, you have become a transgressor of the law" (James 2:10-11). Christians are being even-handed in their judgment. It is the homosexuals who want biased decisions slanted in their favor.
A frequent claim is that suicide is higher among homosexuals. The problem is that it isn't backed by any evidence. [Benjamin Radford, Is There a Gay Teen Suicide Epidemic?, LiveScience]. "The assertion that sexual-minority youths as a class of individuals are at increased risk for suicide is not warranted." [Savin-Williams, Journal of Consulting and Clinical Psychology, December 2001].
What to Do
Your body doesn't care what it has sex with. Its goal is to ejaculate semen when your seminal vesicles get full. Where you focus that desire is based on your own personal choices. Pornography warps your view of the world. It presents an artificial view of people behaving like animals. Who a guy has sex with takes a back seat to the fact that he is having sex whenever he desires it. See: Lies Pornography Tells Men.
"For this is the will of God, your sanctification: that you should abstain from sexual immorality; that each of you should know how to possess his own vessel in sanctification and honor, not in passion of lust, like the Gentiles who do not know God" (I Thessalonians 4:3-5).
"Passion of lust" refer to lustful things that are designed to sexually arouse you, such as pornography. Therefore, the first order of business is to stop corrupting your mind with pornography. It is easy to say, but hard to do since you have built up a habit of watching pornography to ejaculate. You need to separate the two ideas. See: Giving up pornography can't be that simple.
After tackling the issue of pornography, it will become easier to tackle the issue of lust.